My time with Khadíjih was the most important time in my life (and my husband was very happy too!)

 

I met Khadíjih at a time when I couldn’t deal with life anymore. All my knowledge was

not enough to handle or deal with the demands brought on by my family, or by my own needs and desires.

 

I was at rock bottom (I like to refer to it as cellar of earth bottom). I have meditated for 30 years and still had no idea how to get through and provide the quality of life for my boys, my husband, nor myself.

 

Exhaustion became my constant companion and selfcare a word not even considerable let alone doable.

 

My life did not go as I wished for myself. I wasn’t the mother I used to be, nor the wife, friend, or sister.

 

Anger arose day by day getting worse and worse.

 

I dug so deep. Asked myself rather uncomfortable questions with luckily the most important one 'so what are you going to do about it??'

 

I surrendered to the knowing only I can change it. Regardless of how much my husband loved me, he couldn’t change me.

 

That was the moment I made the decision to change, somehow. I refused to continue this way. I did not know how but I knew I would find a way. I was not longer willing to live life in such an unhappy way.

 

I knew I didn’t want to talk in a therapy session (tried it) so I contacted Khadíjih and asked her if she would be willing to guide me. Thankfully she was.

 

That was the turning point.

 

Of course, I had to surrender first. I didn’t want to live life in such a stressful way anymore. It was Not healthy for anyone; me, my boys, my husband, or my environment.

 

Khadíjih was fabulous! The fact that she has a family of her own helped me open up freely and not feel ashamed about my shortcomings. Her gentle way made it easy for me to let my true and raw emotions just come out without really telling her the ins and outs.

 

That was the most interesting thing! No need to repeat all the dramas. Her great knowledge was mind-blowing!

 

The tools Khadíjih provided me with made it possible for me to work through my struggles. Each and every day I chose to remember and use them in difficult situations.

 

As I chose, I Am in my power. And on the other side of that,

 

I believe in me once again,

I’ve learned to accept myself again,

See the beauty in me,

Calm myself down,

Say no when needed,

And the most important one, listen to my heart

 

Now, when I get into a difficult situation, I know what to do before reacting and if I don’t master it for whatever reason, I know to have compassion for myself.

 

I have learned to understand that when things don’t go as well as they maybe should

or could, to not take it personal (important! as I am a master in making it all about me).

 

And I have learned to trust in the unknown …..(Gosh, that one has changed my whole life and that of my family.)

 

My husband and myself are closer than ever. Our children so happy with our new life,

New fantastic schools, and we even just got our dream house!

 

I will forever be thankful to myself to having been so brutally honest with myself and my willingness to change and be guided.

 

I am beyond thankful to have met this incredible soul and light worker Khadíjih.

 

Dear Khadíjih,

we (the whole family) are beyond grateful for you, for your guidance. I am no longer scared of life or what is coming. I truly don’t know how I would have survived these crazy times we are living in now, had I not worked with you… Thank you!

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Much love to all and everyone. Let your heart speak & rule, And all will be good,

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- Sladi Alexander

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